It's like letting go of everything: my dreams, love, worries & even myself.
On dreams, I really don't know what I want, but they said it is whats inside your heart. But some of my dreams had already failed me.
On love, see, I'm not that lucky in finding one. I rarely love, got a stubborn heart, and I don't date (and I hate set ups). Liking a person is not enough for me to take the risk. There should be love and that person should be special before I can say "Okay I'm willing to take all kinds of risk of being in a relationship." Yes, my first relationship is not a happy ever after, but I can say it's not a failure (let me explain that on my next post).
On worries, who doesn't worry? Everybody does. I think it's part of our everyday life, to motivate us to go on. But there are situations and time when my worries weigh out my optimism.
On myself, I don't wanna live in the standards of other people. Hate me if you want. If you don't like me, then don't. It's not gonna be my problem.
All I can think to do now is to let go of it, as the old saying goes "Come what may". As long as I trust my God who's guiding me, everything will fall into its right place. It may not be what I want & pictured out, but I know and eventually can someday find the most reasonable answers to everything. I may not always positive in everything but at the end as I find the answers & reasons, I realize God is right.
